Suddenly, that concept makes sense. I 'get' it after years of reading it. Many times. So, if my outer world is a reflection of my inner world, what's inside out?
Looking around me, there are many clues... on the positive side:
- our flat has a lot of light, warmth and is very clean - yes, that's me on the inside too
- I have a wonderful, joyful son ... playing with him I see my inner beauty most clearly
- I have a very patient and integrity filled husband ... I have them too!
- James goes to nursery one day a week ... I have support outside, so I must be supporting myself inside too
Lessons from the outside world:
- we have a cellar, summer house and corridor about to explode with clutter that has not been dealt with, that we are saving for when we get a home... there are a couple of life issues I still have to deal with, issues where I'm in avoidance.
- our home is too small for us and I feel squeezed ... I have a very self depreciating view of myself, I squeeze myself into an image of me that is too small, that does honour all of who am I and what I have done
- our car is too big for me ... I feel very small in the world and uncomfortable in a big car; it might be far better to embrace its size rather than squirm every time I sit into it. I could start to see myself as a bigger and more powerful person than the mouse I often imagine, hidden away from the world.
- I don't have an income ... what am I giving out? I could be more generous in my thoughts and more appreciative of what I do have, joyful that we do have the money for the groceries every week and enough to travel.
- I find people to be so rude and thoughtless these days ... Dirk's biggest criticism of me is that I am very critical. I could be kinder, more tolerant and thoughtful.